Let's Start from the Very Beginning... (a new beginning)

Today was an eventful day! For reasons I won't really get into my dietician ultimately decided to stop working with me. Though I really liked her as a person I was shocked and hurt and for a short while I felt abandoned by her. Though I realize she may have wanted me to get help beyond her there were many more kind and tactful ways to suggest it. My food issues are no different from others that struggle with weight, from what I understand, so I was a little perplexed at her discussion. 

As you can imagine I was left with two choices - dwell on feeling abandoned or rise to the occasion and succeed. I'm making a conscious choice to do that later. I am going to make use out of this example and moment and tell myself "I can do it"! Thanks to this occasion, as my sweet husband put it, I know a little more about who I am. This situation doesn't prove me to be a failure but it will help me show what I can do with a unique situation, one that has highlighted where I can stand to improve.

Now I have to "decide what I have to do to become who I want to be". Simply put this would be to: 

• lose weight and staying committed
• not be so hard on myself
• realize that I go to great lengths to rationalize decisions even though they give me the outcomes I don't desire.
• learn to look at myself for reassurance

Great distraction tools when I feel tempted by splurges are:

• journal
• distract myself
• substitute something for what I'd really like
• If I have to eat what I'm craving...earn it!
• if you want to be healthier - study health people

This is meant to remind me what I feel today so that when I am in a week moment I can remind me what I am doing this for and how to overcome it all. 

Inspirational Quotes: 

- "Principles are the safe guard to self esteem" - my sweet husband

- " The one who does not remember history is bound to live through it again" - plaque at Auschwitz  

- "Wait for two marshmallows" - silly story from my husband that provides personal motivation

- "What resists, persists" 

- "Never limit your view of life by any past experience" - Ernest Holmes

- "Tomorrow is often the busiest day of the week" - Spanish proverb

- "The way to get started is to quit talking and begin doing"

- "those who can't forget are worse off than those who can't remember"

- "A year from now, you may wish you had started today" - Rober Schuller

Great advice: 

- Learn from what's happened to see what's coming

- When you want to eat something that's a splurge ask yourself if the outcome it gives you is something you want in your life.